It’s amazing how the same occurrence can result in two completely different reactions. I remember the first time I saw two lines on the little stick, I cried tears of happiness, jumped up and down overjoyed, and was shaking with excitement. Today when I saw two lines on the little stick, I stared dumbfounded, silent, and completely still...................
Please don’t misunderstand. It’s not that I didn’t want another baby. Eddie and I have always wanted two children, but after what happened with Adalynn, we were a bit leery of going through another pregnancy and delivery.........................
I know my reaction wasn’t the same with this baby as it was with Adalynn; but I would prefer it if everything in this pregnancy/delivery/newborn phase is different than it was with Adalynn so I guess we’re off on the right foot with my hesitant immediate reaction. As for everything that I would like to be different this time: I would love it if I wasn’t completely ill and puking for the first 18 weeks; I’d like to hold off announcing the news until I’m further along instead of right away; I want to find out the sex of the baby this time; I am hoping for a full-term pregnancy and maybe even child birth classes since I missed them before; of course I’d much rather be at the hospital while giving birth instead of at home; I’d like to get the newborn pics taken at the hospital like “normal” families; I'd rather not have another baby in the NICU; it would be awesome of baby #2 wasn’t confused about nights and days, was a snuggler, and less cranky than sis. I wonder if this all is too much to ask?
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